Chapter 8 - The Woman Before Me

Megan Ross agreed to meet in a public place.
Not a restaurant. Not a coffee shop. A church basement where a support group met twice a week and nobody asked questions when women arrived with sunglasses, nervous hands, or stories they were not ready to tell.
Dad drove me, but he did not come inside until I asked.
Megan was already there.
She looked older than her profile picture, not by age but by experience. Her dark hair was tied back. She wore jeans, a green sweater, and no jewelry except a silver ring on her thumb. When she saw my belly, her face changed.
“Oh,” she whispered.
That one word held more understanding than most people’s speeches.
We sat across from each other at a folding table while Simone waited near the coffee urn.
For a moment, neither of us spoke.
Then Megan said, “He told you I was crazy.”
I nodded.
“He told me the woman before me was crazy too.”
My stomach sank.
There had been another before Megan.
And maybe another before her.
Megan wrapped both hands around her paper cup. “Ryan doesn’t start ugly. He studies you first. Learns who you love. What you’re afraid of. What you’re proud of. Then he uses it.”
I thought of my father.
My strongest bond.
Ryan had turned it into shame.
“He said my father would hate me,” I whispered.
Megan’s eyes softened. “He told me my brothers would say I asked for it.”
We sat in silence.
Then Megan told me her story.
She had dated Ryan for two years in her late twenties. Linda adored her at first. Called her family. Invited her to dinners. Then slowly, Linda began making comments. Megan worked too much. Megan dressed wrong. Megan wasn’t “soft” enough for Ryan.
Ryan became jealous. Then controlling. Then cruel.
“He never left marks people could see,” Megan said. “Not until the end.”
“Did you report him?”
She looked down.
“No.”
I understood before she explained.
“He had everyone convinced I was unstable. Linda told people I drank too much. I didn’t. Ryan told my boss I was having personal problems. He showed up at my apartment crying after I left, and neighbors thought he was heartbroken.”
“What made him stop?”
Megan’s mouth tightened.
“My brother caught him outside my workplace one night. Ryan played innocent, but my brother didn’t buy it. After that, Ryan moved on.”
Moved on.
To me.
A bitter taste filled my mouth.
Megan reached into her bag and pulled out a folder.
“I kept things,” she said. “Not enough for court back then, I thought. But maybe enough now.”
Inside were printed emails. Photos of damaged property. Screenshots of messages from Ryan apologizing without admitting specifics.
You know I only get that angry because I love you.
Don’t make me look like the bad guy.
My mom says you’re punishing me.
Linda again.
Always Linda.
Megan tapped one page. “This one matters.”
It was an email from Linda to Megan after the breakup.
Megan, you need to stop telling people private family business. Ryan has a future. Don’t ruin his life because you couldn’t handle a serious relationship.
My hands went cold.
A pattern.
Not just abuse.
A system.
Linda had protected him before.
Megan looked at my belly again. “I’m sorry I didn’t warn you.”
“You didn’t know me.”
“I knew there would be someone.”
That sentence hurt because it was true.
After the meeting, Megan agreed to speak with Detective Hale. She also agreed to provide records to the prosecutor. It might not all be admissible, Simone warned, but it could help establish pattern, especially regarding Linda’s role.
When Dad came inside and Megan introduced herself, he shook her hand with both of his.
“Thank you,” he said.
Megan’s eyes filled.
“I used to pray someone would believe me.”
Dad’s voice was quiet. “I believe you.”
She looked away quickly, wiping her cheek.
On the drive back, I felt exhausted but strangely stronger. Ryan had made me feel alone by design. But I was not the first woman to see his mask fall. I was not the first woman Linda tried to silence.
And maybe I could be the last.
Two days later, Ryan’s lawyer filed a motion requesting that I undergo a psychological evaluation before any decisions about the baby.
Victor Lang described me as “emotionally volatile,” “highly influenced by her father,” and “possibly suffering from prenatal paranoia.”
Prenatal paranoia.
I read the words three times.
Then I threw up.
Dad wanted to call the attorney immediately, but Simone stopped him.
“Let the legal team answer,” she said. “That filing is meant to provoke.”
It worked.
For one terrible afternoon, I wondered if Ryan would win. If a clean suit and calm voice could still outweigh bruises, recordings, notebooks, medical reports, stolen mail, and another woman’s testimony.
Fear does not disappear just because evidence exists.
That night, Dad found me in the rocking chair, holding the stuffed rabbit.
“What if they believe him?” I asked.
He sat on the edge of the bed.
“Then we keep telling the truth.”
“What if truth isn’t enough?”
He looked tired.
“Then we tell it louder.”
The next week, the prosecutor added charges related to unlawful restraint and witness intimidation. Linda’s attorney attempted to distance her from Ryan. Ryan’s attorney attempted to blame Linda. Mother and son, once united in cruelty, began quietly preparing to sacrifice each other.
That should have satisfied me.
It didn’t.
Because cornered people become dangerous.
At thirty-four weeks, I woke before dawn with a strange pain in my back.
At first, I thought it was stress.
Then another wave came.
Low. Hard. Different.
I gripped the sheets.
“No,” I whispered. “Not yet.”
The baby shifted.
A warm trickle spread beneath me.
For one stunned second, I did not understand.
Then I pressed the emergency call button beside the bed.
May you like
When the night attendant rushed in, I looked at her with terror in my throat.
“My water broke.”