Chapter 22 - My son writes to me

The first letter from Ethan was terrible.
I am sorry everything got out of control.
No.
Second:
I am sorry I pushed you harder than I intended.
Still no.
Third came almost a year later.
I pushed you.
Better.
You went through the glass because of what I did.
Better.
Then:
When I saw blood, I was still angry about the papers. I told you to leave instead of helping you. That is the part I understand least about myself.
I understood it.
He had been inside a state where winning still mattered more than injury.
Then:
I spent years thinking Dad’s money proved my value. When the trust said no, I experienced it as disrespect. When you said no, I treated you like an obstacle.
No request for forgiveness.
Then:
I am sorry I called the house mine while telling you the cottage was all you deserved.
I read that one three times.
Finally:
I do not expect contact. I wanted you to have an accurate sentence from me.
That mattered.
May you like
I did not answer.
Not yet.