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Chapter 22 - Judith’s apology

Judith took longer.

Her first letter from custody:

I never intended for you to fall.

True maybe.

Not enough.

Second:

I am sorry the argument became physical.

Passive.

No.

Third came two years after the staircase.

She had completed custody.

Was under supervision.

Living at home.

No board seat.

She wrote:

I shoved you.

There.

I did it because I was angry that you kept setting limits I could not override through Graham anymore.

I stared.

That level of honesty surprised me.

I believed you were taking my son away. The truth is that Graham was already an adult and I did not know how to tolerate having less influence over him.

Then:

When Graham hurt you in the garage, I told him to hide the word “push” because I thought preserving his reputation would preserve the family. I understand now that I taught him concealment instead of accountability.

Yes.

At the stairs, I used the same belief myself. I wanted to stop you, frighten you, and make you understand that I still had authority in my house. I did not intend the fractures. I did intend the force.

Perfectly specific.

Then:

After you fell, I cared first about what everyone would call it. That is the part I am most ashamed of.

I read that three times.

No request to forgive.

No request for Sunday dinner.

No:

But you were disrespectful too.

I replied:

May you like

I received your letter. Thank you for stating your actions accurately.

Same structure I had learned to use with apologies that mattered but did not erase boundaries.

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