Chapter 4 - The first strange nap

The phrase blue bottle unlocked a memory.
Six weeks earlier.
Margaret had watched Ella while Luke and I attended a friend’s wedding.
We picked her up around ten that night.
Ella was asleep.
Margaret looked pleased.
“See? She can sleep when somebody doesn’t rush in every time she makes a sound.”
I had been irritated.
Not alarmed.
“How long has she been out?”
“Almost three hours.”
That was unusually long for Ella.
I remember touching her cheek.
Warm.
Breathing.
Fine.
She barely woke when I put her into the car seat.
At home, she slept another five hours.
The longest stretch of her life.
Luke and I celebrated.
I texted Margaret the next morning:
Whatever magic you used, send it over.
She replied:
Grandma knows a few things.
I had forgotten that message.
At the hospital, I found it.
My fingers shook.
Showed Karen.
Then Luke.
He looked at it for a long time.
“I didn’t remember this.”
“I did.”
“Did you think she gave medicine?”
“No.”
“Neither did I.”
I looked at him.
“You saw a bottle.”
“Later.”
“And never told me.”
“I thought it was gripe water.”
“You said she called it a sleep helper.”
“I thought she was joking.”
“Did you ask what it was?”
“Yes.”
“And?”
“She said something mild.”
I stared.
“Mild what?”
“She wouldn’t answer.”
“And you dropped it?”
His silence became the answer.
I stood.
Karen said:
“Sarah.”
“I need to walk.”
“Okay.”
I paced three steps.
Hospital room too small.
Ella slept.
Machines.
Luke said:
“I should’ve told you.”
“Yes.”
“I know.”
“No.”
I turned.
May you like
“You know now. That is different.”
He closed his eyes.